Sunday, April 30, 2017

welcome to the world, Brooks!



My friends Ashley and Claire hosted a relaxing sip n see for me this weekend!  A few friends of ours gathered over at Ashley's house and passed around Mr. Brooks while we chatted about mostly babies life over brunch.  

The theme was "welcome to the world" so the decorations were suitcases, globes, and this adorable banner. The theme for gifts was just to bring diapers, and this mama is so thankful! 








I brought along Evynn which I contemplated but she was actually very sweet, and very busy. She LOVES showers, simply because she can just reach up and grab whatever off the table she wants. So, two muffins and 3 donuts later.. I had to keep a closer eye on her ;) Overall, she was a great gal and I force her attending more showers with me over the years like I used to join my mom to!

^face first into chocolate donut #2





When we got home I snapped  a few pictures of the kiddos before changing them out of their outfits. They're at two such fun but very different stages and I don't want to ever forget how tiny they are right this second!







her eyelashes and her smile.. I can't handle it.


We spent the rest of the dreary saturday relaxing around the house, and Claire and cade joined us for dinner and hanging out. It was a great weekend, especially when Aunt Claire comes to town!

Thursday, April 20, 2017

Easter/Brooks first week

We got home from the hospital and had 7 pairs of very helpful hands who assisted in keeping Evynn entertained and holding Brooks so Cody and I could rest/attend to Evynn/whatever else. I think Evynn enjoyed all the extra company, so much that taking naps and sitting still at the table was just not going to happen.

I was beyond nervous for our first evening at home with Brooks, especially because our first night in the hospital was a tough one. I prepared for the worst but was pleastenly surprised! I fed Brooks at about 11pm, laid him down, woke up at 3 to a very content guy in his rock n play but I woke him and fed him, and then at 7am (my usual wake up time) I fed him again.

We had a weight check for Brooks Easter morning so my parents took me and Brooks to that, while Cody and Ev went to church. I was receiving the sweetest pictures from our church friends of Evynn at the nursery egg hunt, made my mama heart so happy! Meanwhile, we had a ham in the oven and a full Easter lunch ready when we all got home. I didn't know that the church had planned a little egg hunt, so surprise, we did too! When Ev got home from church we let her hunt a few more eggs.... she was instantly more interested in the gift inside before hunting for more. After finding her few eggs, she was ready for more. Eager girl ;) She ended up being a hot mess at the table and nap time hit early so she missed saying goodbye as my parents left back home right after lunch.












Brooks is genuinely a very easy baby and so far doing excellent on eating and sleeping! He only cries if he is hungry or has a diaper and most definitely during diaper changes, otherwise is content looking around or going back to sleep. He has breastfeeding down and is fine going 2-3 hour stretches in between feedings but other times I feed on demand and it ends up being every 1-1 1/2 hours apart.

This time around is so so different. By this point with Evynn I was seriously wondering if I was cut out for this and had a little bit of post part depression. Lots of time crying and very little sleeping during the day or at night. I can truly say our hearts are full this time. It seems easier since we know little bit of what we're doing, he is sleeping well, breastfeeding has caught on quickly, and big sister is obsessed with baby! Evynn has her tough (toddler )moments which makes the whole family on edge, but the next second she is very interested in brother.. my heart can't handle the sweetness!

By this point its been just us 4 for a few days, including 2 1/2 work days where it has been just me at home during the day. I was worried about my parents leaving-they helped soon much with Evynn and cooking and everything so we could adjust.  I genuinely think Evynn is a difficult child who is more impatient, not to mention a full fledge toddler. We need an extra dose of patience dealing with her moods in the midst of welcoming baby brother, but over all, I think all is well!

Brooks has been such a great sleeper I was counting my lucky stars, but then I realized that he was becoming little yellow. My worrisome self got super paranoid but we had a check up today and all is well! Praise the Lord. Cody asked several times during the appointment if his circumcision is okay, ha!
birth weight/length: 8lb 2 oz 21in
todays weight/length: 8 lb 4 oz 21 in

Thank Goodness that he is already above birth weight! Evynn dropped weight and didn't regain for weeks which meant constant pumping/supplementing/weekly weight checks/etc. I am so relieved that everything (including yellow skin) checked out just fine and we can keep on trucking ;)

I think my exhaustion finally hit after days of adrenaline because the last few days I have been so so tired. Cody has been awesome and stayed up with Brooks at bedtime so I can get little nap before the bedtime feeding. And afternoon nap time when both kiddos are sleeping is literally a life saver. And coffee. I feel like super mom if I manage to sweep the kitchen and have the dishwasher loaded, but I know I'll get the hang of it all soon and be back to normal. We are so thankful for our family and church for loving on us, we haven't had to do more than heat up food in the kitchen! It may be a few more days before i'm back to actually cooking and we are so thankful for this kindness to help us adjust!












Saturday, April 15, 2017

Brooks' Arrival

His story: 
Everything with Brooks happened so fast. We ate dinner and boom Stephanie darts off so naturally, I send my 20 months old little girl to check on her. Water is broken, apparently... "Let's go to the hospital," she declares. I wonder why this information is registering so slowly in my mind. Water broke, ok... Baby is coming. But how soon? And why is Stephanie not freaking out? So, I begin to start packing bags in the car calmly. We had been ready for months now, and this was apparently "go time!" 

I am honestly not thinking about the Brooks at all on the car ride. I am just thankful that Stephanie got her story to tell. Water broke, rushed to the hospital, no induction, nothing like last time. I knew that is what she wanted and that made me happy. She wasn't hurting in the car at all texting different people as she anxiously ponders if her water broke, or if she returned to her toddler days where she could no longer control her bladder. This helped me focus on my task of getting her to the hospital and help accomplish a successful labor story for my wife. But, I remember thinking, "It's weird that she isn't hurting." Could this really be labor? And if so why do the movies make it seem so urgent and terrifying? This is easy. Oh, and did I mention that it was raining like crazy! I was driving in the middle of the highway because I am a good driver and know what I am doing.  I am a great driver. Again I cannot stress that enough.  

We got to the hospital, and I began to think about Brooks and how excited I was to see him. How little he was going to be and how Evynn was going to respond to him. I am thankful God allowed me to have a newborn son. This was truly an experience very few men get to have in this day and age. A little boy to bring up in the instruction and discipline of the Lord. This labor was long and would have been longer if it wasn't for peanut bouncy ball thingy. But, it worked its magic after ten hours of labor and 15 short minutes of pushing. Then, the little guy was here. Stephanie is a pro at having babies she did a great job! I love her so much for being a great mom who loves Evynn and Brooks with her who heart.

And btw, Evynn is a great big sister just like Stephanie, and I knew she would be!

My story: 
This entire pregnancy I had been saying that I really wanted to go into labor this time around vs. being induced. Nothing wrong with being induced at all, I just wanted the "experience" of something else this time! But, I also wanted a safe delivery so a scheduled induction was in the books for 40 weeks and 1 day (the same that evynn decided to make her appearance). I selfishly wanted the experience of "okay its time to go to the hospital" I suppose but knew that God had a plan and purpose in however he had our birth story already written. 

As 39 weeks approached I was so eager to meet him. I was by no means "miserable" or tired of being pregnant, I was simply eager to meet him and excited to see everything work out. 

At my 39 week appointment I was dilated to a 2 and had my membranes swept. I consistently cramped that entire night and the whole next day at work. The next few days I tried bouncing on the ball at work, using my breast pump, eating spicy food, etc. and I would have occasional "signs" of labor without getting too detailed ;) but nothing painful nor consistent enough to cause concern. I did however work the last 4/5 days before my due date, whew. 

When I left work Tuesday night at 39 weeks and 6 days I had a friend check me at work to discover I was dilated to a 4. I was pretty steadily cramping that whole night all around to my back and thought that would be the night. Not to mention the infamous "full pink moon" was that night, and being a L&D nurse I see that the moon truly does have an effect and swarms of women come into labor. That night I continued to contract and hurt, but yet woke up still pregnant the next day. 

On my due date I was steadily contracting and they seemed to be getting stronger. I really thought "today is the day". We were finalizing our bags and everything anyways in preparation for the next morning. I took a nap around lunch in the midst of a big rain storm and woke up feeling.... absolutely nothing. All the contractions from the previous days had completely stopped and I felt like a million bucks. 

That evening I had come to the conclusion that an induction in the AM was it and I was looking forward to the excitement and anticipation coming the next day. I had prayed for peace that my heart would be okay with whatever day, birth story, route, etc. that Brooks was making his entrance and at this point I finally had just that. I did my hair and makeup real fast to take one more belly picture and posted it making a comment about how cozy he was inside (aka, still pregnant with no end in sight).



After taking the picture, my parents (in town for the big day), Cody, Ev and I ate a ton of spaghetti. After we ate, I was helping clean up our kitchen when out of no where I felt a huge gush of water. I didn't want to make a big deal so I ran to the bathroom where it.kept.coming. I came back out to tell my family that I realllyyy think my water broke. Cody, as cute and nervous as could be, kicked it into gear and started packing our bags. Evynn was losing her mind during this which added to the chaos but Cody and I managed to escape and hit the road. I text a friend who was working to tell her I was on my way.

my mom demanded we take a picture on the way out the door ;)

naturally, it was POURING rain on the way to the hospital. Luckily, the contractions had not returned so I was completely pain free which made for a great, easy car ride full of anticipation. 

We got to the hospital at about 7:35, got settled in our room and updated family. I was still dilated to a 4 and contractions were about 20 min apart so we started pitocin. My photographer headed our way (and the trooper that she is, she stayed with us all night!) Almost instantly the contractions picked up in frequency and got stronger. Anesthesia came to pre-op me and I decided to go on ahead and get the epidural. 


I really thought, being dilated to a 4, my water broke, and 2nd baby... this thing should happen by midnight.. or maybe 2am? However, every check was barely a change. A 7, then 8, then 9.. still a 9.. still a 9. The only down side was we were exhausted and I was having an anxiety attack and could not allow myself to rest. Not to mention, it's hard to turn off being a nurse and not look at the monitor (especially when Brooks heart rate was not looking spectacular). Lara and Cody tossed and turned my extremely numb body several times before finally I was completely dilated at about 4:00/4:15am. We set up for delivery, my doctor arrived, and after pushing for 15 minutes, Brooks made his appearance! Partially due to exhaustion (middle of the night delivery) and the moment of having a baby anyways but it is so surreal. He came out looking oh so chunky and I enjoyed him being skin to skin for awhile. 








We spent the early morning swooning over brooks and waiting for my very numb legs to return to normal. By the time we got upstairs to our postpartum room, my parents and big sister were on their way. How cute is Evynn on the way to the hospital!?


Evynn did good at the hospital! I think it was little confusing why everyone was there, and videoing her, but she was sweet and excited about "baby"




The small hospital room is tough for a busy 20 month old, I brought some coloring books  with "magical" markers, stickers that go on walls/whatever, snacks, etc.


We only stayed one night in the hospital. On thursday night after our family left, we ordered insomnia cookies and enjoyed the late night snack. Brooks had a tough night that night and I'm not sure any of us got sleep.


The next morning our family came back up and our photographer came back to get "48 hour fresh pictures"




We got discharged about 2:00 and headed home. Off to (somewhat with lots of extra help) normal life as a family of 4!